On Mother's Day of 2009, I found out I was going to be a mommy. I remember feeling so conflicted - should I be happy to be having a baby? Upset that it wasn't in our time frame? Scared out of my mind at the magnitude of what bringing a child into the world means? A whole slew of emotions hit me like a ton of bricks - the strongest of which was pure and utter shock.
On Sunday morning, March 11, 2012, I took a pregnancy test. I wasn't really sure what to expect. If I went with the odds, I was not pregnant. If I went with the teeny tiny possibility, well, it was possible. After my husband and I decided he would remain in school for another year to get his masters, our plan to have a child next school year was thrown into chaos. Should we try to have a child while he was in what would likely be the busiest semester of his career at KU? Could I handle a three-year-old and a newborn at home by myself? If we decided to wait, did we really want our children to be four plus years a part in age? Ultimately, we decided to leave the decision up to God. I quit taking the pill in January and BAM! Pregnant in February. I guess we are supposed to have a baby! I'm due in early November and, though still overwhelmed, very excited.
Yay for second children!! A brother or sister is one of the best gifts you can give Charlie... A friend for life! :)
ReplyDeleteI am so excited for you! Funny how God always has a plan even if it's not what we think we want.
ReplyDeleteP.S. I didn't realize it was a secret still and I'm pretty sure I said something about it at the Baby Shower ... oops! Sorry!