Day 10: Most Embarrassing Moment

I have lots - way too many to share here. As a child, they were things like tripping and falling in a puddle of mud at the zoo, or not latching the bathroom door and being seen on the toilet. As an adult, they nearly always involve my big mouth - you know, saying something that sounds stupid because I didn't think it through first.

But as I'm losing weight, and I think the time has come to talk numbers, I'll discuss my weight.

Three and a half years ago, my son was born. About a week before that, when I was 36 weeks pregnant, I stepped on the scale at the doctor's office and saw a mortifying number:

214 lbs

I remember this so vividly - it was a different doctor because mine was gone.  I was in a patient room I'd never been in. The walls were purple. And the "214" glowed bright, mocking me with its electric green finality. I know I was pregnant, but that was hard to swallow. I didn't even want to tell my husband how high that number was.  I had put on nearly 50 lbs.  I don't know what I weighed in the end with my second pregnancy, but as it was three weeks shorter, I'm going to go ahead and say that this was the heaviest I have ever been in my entire life.

I had a doctor's appointment this last April.  They weighed me.

189 lbs

A 25 pound difference from when I was hugely PREGNANT! Not okay. I teared up a little walking back to the waiting room. Why? I was embarrassed. But rather than wallow in self-pity, I decided to do something about it. Summer was coming up, and I knew it was time. 

By the time my regime started, I clocked myself at 185.5.  As of this morning, I am 161.4, which means I have lost 24 lbs. It's noticeable. People are saying things. My pants that I couldn't fit into when I started? I can now not only fit into them, but pull them off and on with the button and zipper fastened. I can wear shirts in a single layer instead of the double that I'm used to. I have no visible back fat. My face is thinner. My waist is narrower. My legs are even looking smaller. I won't rehash what I'm doing to get fit, but I will say that I totally agree with this post from Chelsea - that nearly all of weight loss hinges on, to quote her, "what you put in your hole." This time around I feel much better about the fitness side of things because I am doing so much more in the way of exercise.

My goal is 145. For 5'8", I feel like that's pretty respectable.

16.4 lbs to go.